I have fallen in love. And out of love. A numerous times. People come, people go. Some stay, some don’t. With time, with each passing moment, day, month and year, this unexplainable longingness only grows stronger, for there has been no remedy to it. But each time, surprisingly it strengthens my intention of finding what I have been looking for. And sadly at the same time, takes away a little of my strength to do so.
I often find myself staring into the nothingness. And I continue to stare till my head starts to feel dizzy and I need to force my mind to get back. Fly back from the beyond-this-world zone it keeps flying to. And then, there are these thoughts, questions, and desires. Desires that I have, that you have, desires that we all have. The desire to become something, the desire to achieve everything. The desire to be and look the best. The desire to be happy. And most importantly, the desire to be loved. But it really makes me curious as to what love is. Rather what love is to each one of us. Different meanings and perspectives for sure. Haven’t found my answer yet. Came to my sudden notice that this is the very first post of this month. The month of February. The month of Love. Just been a little lost and with Valentine’s Day just around the corner and this fabulous week at it’s peak, and with everyone releasing these articles and stories, these Sales and parties themed around Valentine’s Day, I think maybe I should too plan a little something. For a start, I have been contemplating buying a red dress. Since forever. An established fact that I have nothing in Red, in my wardrobe. Didn’t have one the last Valentine’s, and don’t have one this Valentine’s either. As much as I write about not knowing much about love and this stillness in life, I am a hopeless romantic at heart. There, I admit it. A super hopeless one. Anyhow, stopping here with a hope to find that perfect red dress and the meaning of true love maybe. And till then doing what I like. Staring into the vast stretch of nothingness, an imaginative space. With much messy hair and a wandering mind.